Why am I depressed now?

So I have been out of work since March but now that I will be starting my new "fabulous" job in a few days -- I am on edge & really for lack of better terms "bitchy, tired & blah". If I didn't know better I would think I was pregnant but since I had the ol' tubes tide in 2003 I am thinking NO WAY JOSE on that one.

So, my latest thoughts have been why am I feeling this way? Nerves? I can go with that for part of my feelings but for the most part I just want to stay alone -- which triggers the depression alert in my mind -- but why now after all this time am I going to feel this way? Is it possibly b/c I wouldn't let myself feel before b/c I knew that was what was going to happen & now I have let my guard down?

Let me know thoughts!

Take care!

So this is my last week of unemployment.

I GOT A JOB!!!

Not only did I get a job --- but after 6 months of searching and interviewing -- I am going to be making A LOT more then I have ever made before.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON -- I don't like bumper stickers but if I had one that is what it would say. I didn't have many interviews over the past 6 months but when I let the sky-rise I knew that I had this one in the bag. They even offered me more than my asking spread (Generally 5K spread)! Can you believe it? Makes me realize I will be making much more if I can make this work.

One problem, I might have elaborated my expertise w/ excell... I know there is excel for dummies but is there a tutorial libraries offer? I can manage my way around but don't ask me about the formulas b/c I can NOT remember how to do that...